Here Goes Nothing

I have apathy for most things in my life that I am *supposed* to do. I think I've always been this way...maybe was told a time or two growing up that I had an "attitude problem" or "problem with authority" or something. When you get older they call you stubborn instead.

Anyway, I (think) I want to start running. I've had the inclination for probably going on a year now. My body says "GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" but my head says, "This couch is really comfortable. You're tired. Just relax."

If there was ever a time in my life to start, it should be now as I am nearly 50 pounds heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight before I had my daughter almost three years ago. She has special needs and our lives are extremely stressful. Not that it's an excuse to let yourself go, but it has certainly been a big contributor. Excercise is good for stress relief - so I've been told - so there's another good reason. And the importance of my overall health is a given. There. Three good reasons to go ahead and give this a shot.

In my mind I just pop on some sneakers, throw open the front door and start running like the wind feeling invigorated and free! But I KNOW this is not how it's going to work which makes me feel, well, apathetic.

This blog will chronicle my journey to become *a runner* from this overweight, stressed out, frazzled person I current embody. I'm enlisting the help of online training tools to get started. Luckily they have a category titled "Couch" into which I fit perfectly. Acutally, I have probably never felt so certain of anything in my life! "Couch to 5k" will be my initial goal. Timeframe? Well, however long it takes. Maybe six months, maybe six years? It's hard to say. But I'm making a commitment to do this and honestly share my experience via this blog.

Great! When do we start?

Although I haven't technically put on running shoes and stepped outside yet, I have started. Mental preparation has begun. I've also ordered an mp3 player and a "Carblovers" diet book which I am anticipating the arrival of. And of course I have to locate said running shoes, brush the dust off of them, and determine if they are indeed suitable for running. If not, a shopping trip will be in order. I must also gather together some running "outfits". Anyone who knows me will understand how important this is to the overall process for me.

So thanks for tagging along with me. This should be interesting! Now, where are those shoes...